mood: meh
listening to: nothing as of yet

It seems that being depressed and/or in a funk is going around these days. I don't know what it is, but I am tired of feeling like this. I never seem to get enough sleep because I wake up tired every morning. I don't know if I am not sleeping well or what. I know I have had a lot on my mind lately...especially money. The whole money thing is so stressful, even though we are making huge headway on it. I guess I just can't see the end in sight yet, and it scares me. Dustin and I talked a little about it last nite...he could tell I was not myself. I also worry about he & I. This fall is going to be super busy for him and I do not look forward to having to adjust to his not being there a lot. I know it will all work out, but it is going to be hard to adjust after having him home the past two months. I wonder if I should find something to do after work to keep me busy. I know I need to start going to church choir again...that would at least give me something to do one night a week. I am also worried about not seeing Erin as much once she moves. I am so happy for her and hope she can move to Marble Falls, but I will miss seeing her. It's been so nice to have her just down the road...I wubs my Erin. *smooch*

Anyway...I'll stop being a downer. I guess I just needed to vent and I need to figure out how to get myself out of this mood I am in.

that I will be out of debt by the end of this month with my credit cards...

but it is so hard to not pick one of them up and use it. I less than $50 left in my bank account for the month and $12 in my pocket. I know there is nothing I need to buy between now and payday, but it is so hard to resist. Mom and I went to the Old Navy pre-grand opening in G'town last nite, and luckily nothing fit right, so all I walked out with was a scarf for myself and a shirt for D. I know I can be strong and not buy everything in sight. And it feels damn good knowing I don't have my debt hanging over me. We still have to pay off D's car and student loans, but things already feel better. I will give D most of my paycheck every month, and the little bit I keep for me will not be going to pushy credit card companies anymore. I cancelled the card I paid off last month, and I am going to call this weekend and cancel the one I just paid off at the beginning of this month. I am only leaving one card open for emergencies. It will stay locked away so I cannot touch it. I have no control when it comes to those shiny plastic cards.

Armadillos sleep in the middle of the road with all four feet in the air.

There are 5,000 types of snakes and 4,998 live in Texas.

There are 10,000 types of spiders. All 10,000 live in Texas, plus a few no one has ever seen before.

Raccoons will test your melon crop and let you know when they are ripe.

If it grows, it will stick you. If it crawls, it will bite you!

Nothing will kill a mesquite tree.

There are valid reasons some people put razor wire around their house.

A tractor is NOT an all terrain vehicle. They do get stuck.

In West Texas the wind blows at 90 mph from Oct 2 till June 25; then it stops totally until October 2.

"Onced" and "twiced" are words.

"Coldbeer" is one word.

People actually grow and eat okra.

Green grass DOES burn.

When you live in the country you don't have to buy a dog. City people drop them off at your front gate in the middle of the night.

The sound of coyotes howling at night only sounds good for the first few weeks.

When a buzzard sits on the fence and stares at you, it's time to see a doctor.

"Fix-in-to" is one word.

There ain't no such thing as "lunch". There is only dinner and then there's supper.

"Sweetened ice tea" is appropriate for all meals and you start drinking it when you are two.

"Backwards and forwards" means I know everything there is to know about you.

"Jeet?" is actually a phrase meaning, "Did you eat?"

You don't have to wear a watch because it doesn't matter what time it is. You work until you're done or it's too dark to see.

You measure distance in minutes.

You can switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day.

Stores don't have bags, they have sacks.

You will see a car with the engine running in the Wal-mart parking lot with no one in it, no matter what time of the year.

All the festivals across the state are named after a fruit, a vegetable or a varmit.

You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked.

You carry jumper cables for your own car.

You know what "cow tipping" and "snipe hunting" are.

You only have four spices in your kitchen: Salt, Pepper, Catsup, and Tabasco.

You think everyone from north of Dallas has an accent.

Sexy underwear is a tee shirt and boxer shorts.

The local papers covers national and international news on one page but requires six pages to cover Friday night high school football.

The first day of deer season is a national holiday.

You know which leaves make acceptable toilet paper.

You find 100 degrees a "tad" warm.

All four seasons are: Almost summer, summer, still summer and Christmas.

You know whether another Texan is from East, West, North, or South Texas as soon as he opens his mouth.

Going to Wal-mart is a favorite past-time known as "goin Wal-Martin" or "off to Wally-world."

You describe the first cool snap (below 70 degrees) as good chili weather.

A carbonated soft drink isn't a soda, cola, or pop ... It's a Coke regardless of brand or flavor.

...finding items in your neopets safety deposit box that have skyrocketed in value. :)